So it goes...

I have been feeling extremely tired lately. The smoke alarm thing didn't help, but also I've been having really weird dreams, which my sister knows isn't that uncommon for me. Like two nights ago. I had a dream that I had cancer. Really bad cancer. So I had to travel to L.A. by myself on a plane reserved specifically for sick people. I guess L.A. is where I had to go to get treated, but going alone? was terrible.
Last night I had a dream where I was working at my old Country Club job and I yelled at everyone for being so stupid, etc. It was a little more satisfying than cancer, but I was angry in my dream, not happy. I also had a dream about shopping for cute clothes but then not being able to pay for them......FAIL.
Also feeling stress about potential stalker. Which I do not enjoy.
My sister has shown me the negative side effects of stress (they are BAD) so I try not to stress and worry about things too much, but something tells me it runs in my family....because anyone one of my friends will tell you that I worry a lot. Like to the point of excessive. Even my sister knows that. For example, Sister will call and leave a message "call me back I need to talk to you about something." She knows that if she doesn't include "nothing bad" or something to that effect, I will worry about it. I suppose this could be a mild form of anxiety. I have also suffered panic attacks in my past.
So perhaps it's the worried feeling I'm feeling in the evening that is affecting my sleep. Who knows. But it sucks, and once morning rolls around I feel like I could sleep all day. But oddly enough, thinking about sleeping all day makes me nervous. Like I might get in trouble or something.....hmmmmm.

Big bowl of Prozac for breakfast

Today? is not a good day. I have to work (which I know I can't complain about) but I don't want to. I got asked out on a date by someone who has a very terrible reputation from a very reputable source. I have also made an idiot of myself in front of other boys. Bad, and embarrassing. Also seeing a boy last night who was very mean to me and proceeded to ignore me. I am the one who is supposed to ignore YOU!
Cold weather, I'm am legitimately wearing Uggs today. It's June.
And the smoke detector battery thing going off at 4 this morning. Over and over and over. Like Mitch Hedberg said, slowly battery drainer.
I'm very cranky.

Weekend

This weekend I am going back to the land of my college, Boulder. But I am not going for just a visit, here is a list of things I am doing over the course of 3 days (travel included):
*Getting second HPV shot
*going to Denver for clothing racks, lightbulbs, and paper shopping bags
*going to see friends band
*taking sister out to dinner for 27th birthday (yay!)
*going to costco
*going to liqourmart
*going to wholefoods
*going to target
*shopping at nordstrom
*brunch with sister
*pedicure with sister (double yay!)
And there is probably some other things I am forgetting, but my feeling is, is that this weekend is going to be INSANE, but exciting. see you on monday.

Going Back in Time

So I thought living with my parents would be awesome? Particularly when my dad told me that he would be my taxi all summer. But as it turns out, not so much. My mom is a wee bit paranoid and EXTREMELY worried about my reputation in this small town. She is "concerned" and "doesn't want my to become a bar fly." My sister made the excellent point that apparently according to my mother going out and drinking with other people is a lot worse than drinking at home, alone. I'm feeling a little bit like a 14 year old, like my mom is going to enforce a curfew pretty soon, or maybe tell me that I can't go out. And after that? I'll be grounded.

Real Estate

Today I agreed to help my dad with an open house. Being the realtor that he is and the market the way it's going, it's the least I can do to sit in this condo and let people have a look. This isn't the first time I've done this for my dad, it's easy and helpful. Only today? I'm sitting in a condo that has been foreclosed. My dad is selling on behalf of a bank (which will remain nameless). I feel like I'm sitting in a real, live example of the recession. And to make it even better? Apparently now I am babysitting someone's cat. This young fellow told me not to let it go outside. He made no effort to introduce himself and didn't tell me the cat's name. So now I am calling it "Kitty." And this whole place smells like cat pee, my dad even said so himself. Lucky for me I can steal internet here! Boy, what a morning.

Dear The Weather,

I would really appreciate a little sunshine. I know the earth appreciates the moisture, but it's cold out, and beginning to make me feel depressed and needing to stay in bed all day long. A warm, sunny day would be greatly appreciated. On another note, while the lovely folks at my Country Club job totally blew me off and left without job at that establishment, I walked into another Crested Butte store and got an immediate job offer, which pays better and is all around better. So take that County Club! I'm better than you anyways!! That made my day, and not to mention in this economy? I am not about to turn down a job (even though I had to explain that to my mother...)

summer

So being that the semester recently ended, finished another round of finals, and spent the first few days of freedom properly intoxicated, I'm beginning to feel a bit restless. Seriously, my body can only take so much alcohol. I had a few summer cocktails this afternoon because the weather was just too nice and the deck was calling out names. My roommates and I sunned ourselves far too long, drank just a tad too much, and now I have a wicked headache. My apartment building is ungodly loud because my neighbors are still in party mode, but I? Am not. I want to go back to my hometown, where my parents are and my doggie. My sisteris in my neighborhood, and will miss her the most, and it's freaking awesome having her around, but I think it's time to head to higher altitude.